Living my eulogy
Did you know you could plan your funeral now? I know it sounds a bit morbid but one can select the casket, plan the service, order the flowers, and go ahead and pay in full. The purpose is to make the time of loss easier on loved ones. What a thoughtful and loving thing to do for one’s family! I’ve not hit 50 yet so I’m not ready to make this move. However, we did recently purchase grace spots in the local cemetery, a move in the right direction perhaps.
I think I’ve had too many conversations about funerals this week because as I read in Nehemiah, I found one line that sounds a bit like a eulogy for Hananiah.
“I put in charge of Jerusalem my brother Hanani, along with Hananiah the commander of the citadel, because he was a man of integrity and feared God more than most men do.” Nehemiah 7:2
Though I’m not ready to plan my funeral yet, I am ready to live the eulogy I want told of me at the end.
I want most for others to say I was a woman of integrity who feared, or referenced, and loved God with all her heart. I want to be remembered for loving my family, my students, my community, and anyone that crossed my path. I want them to say she loved others not in word only but with action love carried out with a servant’s heart.
But here’s the catch…
I won’t have such a eulogy if I don’t live it out now.
Today I must live to glorify God with all I am for that is what all of this adds up to. Not for my glory. Not so others say, ‘she was all that’. I want my life to point to Jesus! I want others to see the love I have as God’s hand working in me. I want others to see such joy even in trials that they want to find the source. I want my life to solely point to God!
Lord, give me a heart like yours, one that loves and gives and serves. May others see your hand at work in desperately flawed me and look to You! Amen