With sweaty palms and my heart about to beat out of my chest, I slowly moved on the stairway. I look back and wonder why fear so overwhelmed me. Our home sat at the back of the subdivision with fields stretched out behind. Gary’s job required much traveling with him often gone Monday through Friday. With a four year old and one year old tucked away peacefully in their beds, I was left alone in a quiet house where I heard every noise, including imagined ones I’m sure. Fear was a battle I fought each night.
I look back at those months and find God not only walked with me but he was teaching me and helping me grow in faith, preparing me for battles ahead.
Being alone in a quiet home no longer strikes fear in my heart and in general I’m not given to worry or fear. Still sometimes circumstances can seem overwhelming and I must run back to the Word to find help in such verses as the ones I came across today-
“God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging.” Psalm 46: 1-3
Talk about pretty drastic circumstances to face! Yet even in such severity, God is our ever-present help in trouble!
In that quiet house my fear was huge but I walked with the stairs praying night after night after night until I passed through that season. God was faithful to our little family in those days and as the circumstances changed I found him always there.
Facing fear? Dealing with a situation that makes the verses of mountains quaking and falling look small? Call out to God! Know Him as your ever-present help! Know his peace!
Lord, thank you for walking with that very scared and insecure 24 year-old me. You have always been my ever-present help even as circumstances became more challenging and complex. Thank you! Please continue always by my side! Amen